Well, its the holiday season again, and I can't help but feel the sting from last year, for those of you that know i spent 5 months stressed because my wife left and i was doing everything i could to get the money to go get her, well i spent the end of December last year heading to Canada to get my wife and daughter, and again in February, both of these times led to nothing, well my wife and i have been talking for the past while and we had planed on her coming home (yes yet again) and the plane ticket would be $536 for her to leave on the 20th, she was supposed send me $200 to help pay for the ticket, and i was missing $160 to have all of it, so i absolutely needed the money she was sending, and well, she waited, and waited, and waited, and now, it will be $768, so now as you can tell i have no way of getting the money together to fly her in, i had made so much progress in fighting my depression and now i am finding much harder to deal with even small things... well i guess its just me but i think i'm tired of all of this i love my wife, but i hate how she makes me feel anymore, she tells me she loves me but i don't see it, i have never seen a woman like her, never felt this way about anything or anyone, maybe i'm just in love with being in love, but i think i will always be like this... i can't let go of her, but at the same time it doesn't feel like she wants to be with me anymore... ok i don't know i'm stupid for even typing this, i guess i've went on long enough....

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Short list of some of my fav artists:





And my of all time favorite artist:

well i have had vonage for a number of months now and have had no issue untill late, when i got a phone call informing me i was excessivly using the phone line, and they were tellingme i was going to be switched over to a small business account, but when i signed up for vonage over the phone the man i spoke with never mentioned that there would be a 5000 minute cap before they started looking at my account, and with my wife out of town in canada it is the only way i had to talk to her and my daughter, i tried to explain i missed my wife and yes, maybe we talked for longer then the 5000 minutes would allow but at the same i was told this was an "unlimited plan" and as such i would have unlimited minutes to call any country in the world that which included canada, well my assumption was gravely mistaken, as of today my service was shut off and i was informed to get it back i would have to pay an increased rate for the small business account which is roughly $20 more then what i'm paying now, this doesn't seem like much but i was recently injured and am forced to live with my parents (both of which are on disability) and we are barely making it by as is, i tried to explain this to the woman i spoke with but she spent too much time telling me about how there was nothing she could do, and not letting me speak to even understand what was happening on my end... i guess long story short what i'm saying is; how is 2.78 hours a day excessive? has no one that runs vonage ever seen what a teenager can do to a phone?... my mother and myself have ran up the minutes between me talking to my wife and daughter and her talking to her family in michigan, but on that we were told it was an unlimited plan, i would probably never taken the service if i were told it would lead to this...


5000 minutes... 2.78 hours a day...

vonage who are you to say what's excessive?!

Well I have four pixel pieces I'm working on at the time, but I want photoshop to finish them in, its annoying doing them in paint. If anyone thinks they can help me get my photoshop back, or wants to assist in my pixel projects feel free to hit me up.

And I have finally started adding new artists to the list... there are two new ones at the end of the list and when i finish sorting my hoard of deviants i have on the ol' watch list i'll have 5/7 more added... enjoy ^_^

Short list of some of my fav artists:





And my of all time favorite artist: